Say what?
I need to clear some things up right now.
Yes, I am a very confusing person. I do follow my heart and almost all the time it leads me in the wrong direction. I do get hurt very easily and I take a lot of thing personally. I was hurt very badly by what had happened between me and Mark but I'd like to say that when I said I wanted to talk to him, I meant once. One talk. I don't want to be his friend. I don't want to be in his life again. What I say about wanting him here and what not is because I am trying to get over him. Its the feeling of loneliness. When I think about it, reasonably, I know that I DON'T want him around-or anywhere near me. I would like to talk to him once though so I could at least get some answers for so many questions I have. Like I said, I don't want his friendship.
I am in love with Mike. My Meat. He has done so much for me and has made me feel on top of the world. I'm going to go on because I have already written so much about him in the past.
Yes, I do write about other guys because I do have crushes. Its natural. Everyone has a crush on someone whether you realize it or not.
I am 18, I'm still young but I do know what love is and I don't treat it with childish games. I take love very seriously because its a serious feeling. Very permanent, demanding, and needing. Maybe I can't say I truly know what love is until I'm standing at that alter with my husband, but i'm pretty sure i have the jiff of it. And yes, maybe if i look back at now, I'll realize that all that I felt for the past 2 people I loved wasn't truly love. Maybe what is with Mike right now isn't love, but I will know that I felt something very, very strong for these 3 individuals and I was very blessed to have had such amazing times with amazing people.
Til later...
Yes, I am a very confusing person. I do follow my heart and almost all the time it leads me in the wrong direction. I do get hurt very easily and I take a lot of thing personally. I was hurt very badly by what had happened between me and Mark but I'd like to say that when I said I wanted to talk to him, I meant once. One talk. I don't want to be his friend. I don't want to be in his life again. What I say about wanting him here and what not is because I am trying to get over him. Its the feeling of loneliness. When I think about it, reasonably, I know that I DON'T want him around-or anywhere near me. I would like to talk to him once though so I could at least get some answers for so many questions I have. Like I said, I don't want his friendship.
I am in love with Mike. My Meat. He has done so much for me and has made me feel on top of the world. I'm going to go on because I have already written so much about him in the past.
Yes, I do write about other guys because I do have crushes. Its natural. Everyone has a crush on someone whether you realize it or not.
I am 18, I'm still young but I do know what love is and I don't treat it with childish games. I take love very seriously because its a serious feeling. Very permanent, demanding, and needing. Maybe I can't say I truly know what love is until I'm standing at that alter with my husband, but i'm pretty sure i have the jiff of it. And yes, maybe if i look back at now, I'll realize that all that I felt for the past 2 people I loved wasn't truly love. Maybe what is with Mike right now isn't love, but I will know that I felt something very, very strong for these 3 individuals and I was very blessed to have had such amazing times with amazing people.
Til later...
