Thoughts and more randomness
OMG i am so very pissed right now. I wrote this really long, feelings fulled entry earlier and it all disappeared! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
So on a different note I have a conversation with my meat i'd like to put in here....
+19732143449 (8:48:27 PM): Your my fantasy
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:48:56 PM): all the time? Or do you fantasize about other gurls too?
+19732143449 (8:50:35 PM): Your my only fantasy
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:50:52 PM): i hope so
+19732143449 (8:55:09 PM): Dont hope. You should know
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:55:37 PM): i don't know what you think baby. I can't read your mind
+19732143449 (8:56:58 PM): well that is what i think your so sexy ugh. I love you marry me
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:57:27 PM): i do
+19732143449 (9:01:48 PM): Were going to get married next week
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:02:07 PM): where?
+19732143449 (9:03:00 PM): Las vegas
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:03:12 PM): but babbby
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:03:47 PM): i wanted a wedding on the beach when there is beautiful weather so we could have sex right there after the wedding is over and everyone is gone
+19732143449 (9:05:31 PM): Cali it is then
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:05:54 PM): okay :-)
+19732143449 (9:06:42 PM): Yay ill book the flight tomorrow
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:06:52 PM): okay
+19732143449 (9:07:32 PM): im not kidding
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:07:58 PM): i believe you baby. We're just not gonna have any babies though
+19732143449 (9:08:32 PM): I agree
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:08:56 PM): okay good
+19732143449 (9:11:15 PM): So now you are my finace
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:11:29 PM): yes babe
+19732143449 (9:12:16 PM): Do you think im joking
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:12:22 PM): no
+19732143449 (9:12:54 PM): Good
+19732143449 (9:17:12 PM): I would do anything to have you stay in my life forever
Cute huh? I guess I'm gettin married ;-)
Basically what i wrote in the other entry that disappeared was a lot of things i was feeling, about mike, meeting him, and everything he has done for me. I was in the mood for spilling out my heart then, but now i'm not. I'm kinda like ehck. Reason?.....Jason called me. Now the reason for me gettin upset about a kid named jason calling me is a very, very long story i don't feel like getting into at this moment. (remember...i don't feel like spilling out my heart right now lol) But maybe later? The blog will be called Jason.
I need a cigarette. Never start smoking. Ever.
Today was a blah day. Wasn't in that great of a mood. Had a nice talk with Jo.
You know what? Fuck it....i'm going to spill....
First of all....Jo. She works with me at Marshalls. She's a french woman who's almost like my mother figure because of our relationship. She keeps me in line....sometimes. ;-) She asked me about Mark and if i had talked to him recently. I said no, we don't talk anymore. She said good, he was a waste of your time, all he did was hurt you, use your for your car, money, and what good did it do? He found a new girl. When she said that to me, it really made me think. She is right. It is for the best that we are not talking and that things are the way they are. I'm so happy with the wonderful man i have. I just wish sometimes we could have had some sort of closure you know? I love Jo :)
Next, i'd like to talk about my other half Mike. Or Meat as I like to call him. I call him meat because back when we first started dating he joked to me saying that he feels like i treat him like a piece of used meat. Great story huh? But its what i call him. Mike treats me like a freaking goddess. He's everything that i've ever needed in someone when it comes to honesity, trusting, caring, loving, everything. When we first met, i was dating mark and he was dating someone else, and when i first saw him, i thought to myself, damn he's hot! (later when i told him that he told me he was thinking the same thing about me) Love at first sight......
Now here we are, about a year later. Things are amazing. I have my doubts sometimes though. I doubt how much he loves me. Like.....
+19732143449 (9:29:08 PM): I want you so bad all the time
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:29:28 PM): all the time?
+19732143449 (9:30:00 PM): yea
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:30:23 PM): do you love me though
+19732143449 (9:31:35 PM): i want to be with you forever yes i love you i love you i love you
I have my doubts mostly because i don't understand why a guy so much older (i'm 18, he's 25) would be interested in me. Like, i have this impression that all they would want is sex. Idk, but then he looks in me in the eye with that look.....god damn that look......and all my doubts disappear..... God i love you!
Plus, our age difference kinda puts a little, like, stress almost on me. I have my separate goals that are so completely different than his because of where both of us are in our lives. Understand? Oh well.
I'm still not going to talk about Jason cause i honestly don't even want to think about it. Bad memories.
But lets see....today was alright. I had work 10-4 and i pulled rolling racks onto the floor cause our stock room is sooo full. I made no difference :(. After work i saw Mike. Now, here I am. I've been on the computer sense.....830, 9 i think. I'm obsessed. Found some more interesting sites that i will add. I also want to thank strife for adding me to his page :) *Visit his!* lol
Class tomorrow morn w/hector!!! lol then work at 230. Should be an interesting day sense my fav managers in the world are closing. Grrrrrrrrr. For now......possibly more later.....
So on a different note I have a conversation with my meat i'd like to put in here....
+19732143449 (8:48:27 PM): Your my fantasy
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:48:56 PM): all the time? Or do you fantasize about other gurls too?
+19732143449 (8:50:35 PM): Your my only fantasy
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:50:52 PM): i hope so
+19732143449 (8:55:09 PM): Dont hope. You should know
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:55:37 PM): i don't know what you think baby. I can't read your mind
+19732143449 (8:56:58 PM): well that is what i think your so sexy ugh. I love you marry me
JitTer BUGgy2600 (8:57:27 PM): i do
+19732143449 (9:01:48 PM): Were going to get married next week
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:02:07 PM): where?
+19732143449 (9:03:00 PM): Las vegas
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:03:12 PM): but babbby
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:03:47 PM): i wanted a wedding on the beach when there is beautiful weather so we could have sex right there after the wedding is over and everyone is gone
+19732143449 (9:05:31 PM): Cali it is then
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:05:54 PM): okay :-)
+19732143449 (9:06:42 PM): Yay ill book the flight tomorrow
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:06:52 PM): okay
+19732143449 (9:07:32 PM): im not kidding
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:07:58 PM): i believe you baby. We're just not gonna have any babies though
+19732143449 (9:08:32 PM): I agree
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:08:56 PM): okay good
+19732143449 (9:11:15 PM): So now you are my finace
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:11:29 PM): yes babe
+19732143449 (9:12:16 PM): Do you think im joking
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:12:22 PM): no
+19732143449 (9:12:54 PM): Good
+19732143449 (9:17:12 PM): I would do anything to have you stay in my life forever
Cute huh? I guess I'm gettin married ;-)
Basically what i wrote in the other entry that disappeared was a lot of things i was feeling, about mike, meeting him, and everything he has done for me. I was in the mood for spilling out my heart then, but now i'm not. I'm kinda like ehck. Reason?.....Jason called me. Now the reason for me gettin upset about a kid named jason calling me is a very, very long story i don't feel like getting into at this moment. (remember...i don't feel like spilling out my heart right now lol) But maybe later? The blog will be called Jason.
I need a cigarette. Never start smoking. Ever.
Today was a blah day. Wasn't in that great of a mood. Had a nice talk with Jo.
You know what? Fuck it....i'm going to spill....
First of all....Jo. She works with me at Marshalls. She's a french woman who's almost like my mother figure because of our relationship. She keeps me in line....sometimes. ;-) She asked me about Mark and if i had talked to him recently. I said no, we don't talk anymore. She said good, he was a waste of your time, all he did was hurt you, use your for your car, money, and what good did it do? He found a new girl. When she said that to me, it really made me think. She is right. It is for the best that we are not talking and that things are the way they are. I'm so happy with the wonderful man i have. I just wish sometimes we could have had some sort of closure you know? I love Jo :)
Next, i'd like to talk about my other half Mike. Or Meat as I like to call him. I call him meat because back when we first started dating he joked to me saying that he feels like i treat him like a piece of used meat. Great story huh? But its what i call him. Mike treats me like a freaking goddess. He's everything that i've ever needed in someone when it comes to honesity, trusting, caring, loving, everything. When we first met, i was dating mark and he was dating someone else, and when i first saw him, i thought to myself, damn he's hot! (later when i told him that he told me he was thinking the same thing about me) Love at first sight......
Now here we are, about a year later. Things are amazing. I have my doubts sometimes though. I doubt how much he loves me. Like.....
+19732143449 (9:29:08 PM): I want you so bad all the time
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:29:28 PM): all the time?
+19732143449 (9:30:00 PM): yea
JitTer BUGgy2600 (9:30:23 PM): do you love me though
+19732143449 (9:31:35 PM): i want to be with you forever yes i love you i love you i love you
I have my doubts mostly because i don't understand why a guy so much older (i'm 18, he's 25) would be interested in me. Like, i have this impression that all they would want is sex. Idk, but then he looks in me in the eye with that look.....god damn that look......and all my doubts disappear..... God i love you!
Plus, our age difference kinda puts a little, like, stress almost on me. I have my separate goals that are so completely different than his because of where both of us are in our lives. Understand? Oh well.
I'm still not going to talk about Jason cause i honestly don't even want to think about it. Bad memories.
But lets see....today was alright. I had work 10-4 and i pulled rolling racks onto the floor cause our stock room is sooo full. I made no difference :(. After work i saw Mike. Now, here I am. I've been on the computer sense.....830, 9 i think. I'm obsessed. Found some more interesting sites that i will add. I also want to thank strife for adding me to his page :) *Visit his!* lol
Class tomorrow morn w/hector!!! lol then work at 230. Should be an interesting day sense my fav managers in the world are closing. Grrrrrrrrr. For now......possibly more later.....
