Broken Inside
The people at my work are almost like a second family to me because I see the all the time. The older women who work with me almost at like the mother figures in my life. But then there is that fine life between work and personal life/self that some people don't seem to realize is there.
What really got me kind of annoyed today was that when I was walking into work this afternoon, two of my managers where outside having a cigarrette. One of them, Ms. Ury said, "Sarah, you've lost too much weight."
I said, "What?"
"You've lost too much weight, you're too skinny."
"I actually haven't been loosing weight, if anything, I'm gaining weight right now."
*She gave me "the look"*
Ms. Groen said, "Doesn't she sound like your mother?"
"Yeah, actually I was just about to say, yes mother."
Ms. Ury, "Well, don't say I don't care."
I gave her a hug and said, "Thank for the concern, but I'm fine, really." And started walking inside. As I walked away she said, "You have no ass either."
Here we go....I'm about 5'7" and last time i checked (at thanksgiving) I weighted 120.5. I'm a size 5 in juniors and about a size 2 in misses. I eat all the time, and yes, sometimes i don't eat enough, mostly because there is not a lot of time. But I usually end up making up for it later. Yes, I am insecure about my weight and my figure however, I am NOT anorexic or bulemic (if i didn't spell them right, I'm sorry). But I DO looove my ass and the fact that she said i have no ass kinda got me upset so i guess i need to work on that....
You set my soul at ease. Chased darkness out of view. Left your desperate spell on me. Say you feel it too I know you do. I've got so much more to give. This can't die, I yearn to live.
What really got me kind of annoyed today was that when I was walking into work this afternoon, two of my managers where outside having a cigarrette. One of them, Ms. Ury said, "Sarah, you've lost too much weight."
I said, "What?"
"You've lost too much weight, you're too skinny."
"I actually haven't been loosing weight, if anything, I'm gaining weight right now."
*She gave me "the look"*
Ms. Groen said, "Doesn't she sound like your mother?"
"Yeah, actually I was just about to say, yes mother."
Ms. Ury, "Well, don't say I don't care."
I gave her a hug and said, "Thank for the concern, but I'm fine, really." And started walking inside. As I walked away she said, "You have no ass either."
Here we go....I'm about 5'7" and last time i checked (at thanksgiving) I weighted 120.5. I'm a size 5 in juniors and about a size 2 in misses. I eat all the time, and yes, sometimes i don't eat enough, mostly because there is not a lot of time. But I usually end up making up for it later. Yes, I am insecure about my weight and my figure however, I am NOT anorexic or bulemic (if i didn't spell them right, I'm sorry). But I DO looove my ass and the fact that she said i have no ass kinda got me upset so i guess i need to work on that....
You set my soul at ease. Chased darkness out of view. Left your desperate spell on me. Say you feel it too I know you do. I've got so much more to give. This can't die, I yearn to live.
