Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas and happy holiday's everyone. :) I got everything I could ever want and more.
It was nice but as always there was the holiday depression. It hit me as my family sat down to open the presents around our tree. Its hard looking around the living room at the family, seeing all the paper thrown everywhere, seeing 3 other people next to you when there should be 4. Its hard to know there won't be those extra presents under that tree for her and the goofyness she brought as we opened presents; the tears in her eyes when she opened that special present...
The entire family isn't as close as it was either. The "adults" sit in the dining room to eat while the "children" sit in the family room watching TV and eating. We used to always eat together. Maybe its better this way- there would still be that seat that needs to be filled. My grandparents don't have that spark in their eyes when giving out our presents. There's that empty seat next to my father on the couch they always sat at.
It was fun going shopping for the presents when we got the money from my grandparents and my father, but it was no fun opening the presents and knowing/expecting almost everything we got. Its no fun to get older.
Every Christmas Eve we drive around and look at lights on houses then come home and read the Polar Express and The Night Before Christmas. Last night instead, we saw Polar Express (very, very cute) and went to a house in Dover where the lights are absolutely spectacular. There is also a spot where you can write a letter to Santa and put it on this pulley that goes up to this bag on the roof. This was the first year i wrote a letter. I won't say what i asked for, but i will say it was no object.
I hope it wasn't too hard for those other families who have dealt with loses. In the end, you know that they are always with you there in spirit....
Good night all.
It was nice but as always there was the holiday depression. It hit me as my family sat down to open the presents around our tree. Its hard looking around the living room at the family, seeing all the paper thrown everywhere, seeing 3 other people next to you when there should be 4. Its hard to know there won't be those extra presents under that tree for her and the goofyness she brought as we opened presents; the tears in her eyes when she opened that special present...
The entire family isn't as close as it was either. The "adults" sit in the dining room to eat while the "children" sit in the family room watching TV and eating. We used to always eat together. Maybe its better this way- there would still be that seat that needs to be filled. My grandparents don't have that spark in their eyes when giving out our presents. There's that empty seat next to my father on the couch they always sat at.
It was fun going shopping for the presents when we got the money from my grandparents and my father, but it was no fun opening the presents and knowing/expecting almost everything we got. Its no fun to get older.
Every Christmas Eve we drive around and look at lights on houses then come home and read the Polar Express and The Night Before Christmas. Last night instead, we saw Polar Express (very, very cute) and went to a house in Dover where the lights are absolutely spectacular. There is also a spot where you can write a letter to Santa and put it on this pulley that goes up to this bag on the roof. This was the first year i wrote a letter. I won't say what i asked for, but i will say it was no object.
I hope it wasn't too hard for those other families who have dealt with loses. In the end, you know that they are always with you there in spirit....
Good night all.
