Child's play
I'm such a little girl.
I was promised to see him once he got home from going to court (long story). He called me when he got home and said he was taking a nap. Until 10 pm. Whats the point? Just go to bed. I was hurt and got upset and he got mad for me being selfish. Was I being selfish for wanting to see him? If I had just said okay, i'll talk to you later, it would have saved a very childish fight and him getting mad at me- for the second time today.
I don't think I would normal have acted like this. I get very emotional very easily. There are a lot of little things that need to be done or that are going to be happening that are building up inside of me. I have no gas in my car. I can't go anywhere. I have no cigarettes. I have no money. I'm just stuck in this house, watching TV or looking at this stupid fucking computer screen, listening to my shitty ass music. My boyfriend mad at me because i'm an emotional disaster. To make all of this even better, Mike told me today that someone at his work said he talked to/saw Mark recently with his girlfriend. He was reported to say, Fuck Sarah and Mike.
I'm 18 years old and I'm still dealing with this bullshit. This is why I want to get the hell out of Mount Olive, far away from New Jersey. But then again, I cant bear the thought of leaving.
When I do, there won't be any good bye's. I'll be gone and not a glance back.
I need to grow the fuck up.
I was promised to see him once he got home from going to court (long story). He called me when he got home and said he was taking a nap. Until 10 pm. Whats the point? Just go to bed. I was hurt and got upset and he got mad for me being selfish. Was I being selfish for wanting to see him? If I had just said okay, i'll talk to you later, it would have saved a very childish fight and him getting mad at me- for the second time today.
I don't think I would normal have acted like this. I get very emotional very easily. There are a lot of little things that need to be done or that are going to be happening that are building up inside of me. I have no gas in my car. I can't go anywhere. I have no cigarettes. I have no money. I'm just stuck in this house, watching TV or looking at this stupid fucking computer screen, listening to my shitty ass music. My boyfriend mad at me because i'm an emotional disaster. To make all of this even better, Mike told me today that someone at his work said he talked to/saw Mark recently with his girlfriend. He was reported to say, Fuck Sarah and Mike.
I'm 18 years old and I'm still dealing with this bullshit. This is why I want to get the hell out of Mount Olive, far away from New Jersey. But then again, I cant bear the thought of leaving.
When I do, there won't be any good bye's. I'll be gone and not a glance back.
I need to grow the fuck up.
