Friday, January 21, 2005

Will you dance with me?

Songs and music have an amazing power. They can make you feel so many different emotions. Or a certain songs lyrics make you feel a certain emotion. I can relate every song to an emotion I feel. I seem to always be able to find the certain lyrics to satisfy my mood or explain. But today is different. I sit here thinking of the lyrics that could possibly even give a hint of what I'm feeling, but nothing comes to mind. Only "I Hope You Dance" by Lee Ann Womak. Too much is going on in my life and right now is the only chance I have had in the past 3 days for myself. And so far its only been about 20 minutes. There's so much to say but no way to say it.

I can't stop dreaming. Every night I've dreamt. I guess thats good- at least my mind is attempting to sort out some things for me. But the dreams are so adnormal. Why did I feel that certain way with my cousin? Why were we in Marshalls? In the dream I had last night, my next door neighbor kissed me. He's 13...I think. I haven't seen this kid or talked to him in years, why the dream? He was at my house...or someone's house...and his sister came over and said ____ we are leaving now, are you coming? He said no, I'll just go tomorrow. She said, you're going to go by yourself? How? He just said, I don't know. And he looked at me and said to her, I'll figure out a way. My dream the night before was too weird to even write.

help

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance