i give you my heart

funny how i thought things had changed (last post) but in the end, it didn't. and thats quite sad

but this guy i'm posting about now i have before (recently) and i have to write again about him

cuz it sucks when you break up with someone and feel like there will never be someone like them. that there is no one who would be understanding of you or anything like they were.

and the greatest feeling in the world is finding someone who's even better than the last. i know that might sound mean but its the way i'm feeling right now. getting to know someone new is so exciting. testing the other person trying to figure out exactly what they like. during this process you learn so much about yourself. like, my eyes tell my entire life story and he's reading it like there's no tomorrow.

but he's such an amazing person. he treasures his girls, makes them number one. loves them as much as he can give and doesn't expect anything back. he does everything just for a smile. the way he touches me is unbelieveable. undescrible. he touches like every inch of my skin is sacred and beautiful. and that feeling is absolutely the best. he holds me close to him as if to never let me go, to make sure i don't leave.

i would have never met him if i hadn't stopped being so unsociable to my co workers. i would have never met him if i hadn't changed jobs. i would have never met him if M hadn't broken up with me. more and more now i'm realizing that everything is happening for a reason. my life is planned out and the only reason i go through the heartache is because i hadn't found that right person yet...and it was time for me to continue on for that search. i do believe the stories of how we were put on this earth to find our soulmates.

...and all of this has happened because of a double take...