right here waiting

sometimes you need that thing
that one thing
to help you in some way. it soothes you, talks to you, and hugs your soul.

i go to music a lot to calm me. but somehow during this time in my life, it makes things worse.
every song thats played on the radio i can somehow relate to myself and my feelings or how they were.

but then you find that perfect song that just describes everything. it makes you want to cry and laugh that this artist knew exactly the right words, the exact emotions, and to make it even better, the perfect tone.

in a way, it makes you feel like your not so alone, that you're not the only one who has felt this way. it makes you feel good...but only for a second...because you remember the lyrics, you remember why you are upset or angry...you remember, but this time, you let the music take control of these feelings. they sweep through you, touching your heart, whispering all the words you need to hear. it builds you up, rises your heart...

but then the song is over, and you fall back to your feet...back to the earth where the pain is real and hurt is inevitable.

yet, you still remember that song and it gives you a little hope that eventually somethings can be as they were.