update

one thing about me that i hate is that i live in the past. i focus too much about what has happened and what i could of done, should of done, to change it, to have made it better or different. i'm not who i was anymore. i've changed. i made my first step the other day. i could have gone back to m. i had the chance. but that would have required breaking it off with my new beau. i could never hurt him like that. he's everything i man could ever be to a woman. i am blessed to have found him. and i wasn't ready to let that go. i could have gone back to the simplicity, knowing m for so long, our past, knowing what our future would be. but i chose not to. because i know the both of us would expect what we had before. but that would never have happened mostly because of what i did to mess things up. and i changed in those couple months. so did he. it would have never worked out because the both of us would have been expecting so much from the other. i wouldn't be able to give him everything he wanted.
right now i have never been so sure of anything.
and i'm damned happy about it :)