what?

i don't have any way of checking to see if anyone is checking me out anymore...but i have a strang feeling no one is.
i went away for a little while and suddenly everyone is either gone or just not writing as much. during only a little amount of time, people change so much and its sad to see some people gone or move on to bigger and better things. i guess one of the benefits to not having as much viewers is that i can be more open...i guess.

things suck. heart ache sucks, longing sucks, and fucking up good things sucks.

i thought i had more to say but alas, i don't.

dreamer

i just want you to leave
get out of my life
get out of my car
get out of my head
get out of my dreams.

i loved you too much and i love you even more. i miss you more than i could ever dream of and still get those freakin butterflies in my stomach whenever i see you.

when i drive by your house
i wonder what you're doing at that very second.
i wonder if you're thinking of me like i'm thinking of you. and if you're thinking anything good about me at all
cause you had hung up on me and left me hanging.
the message you had left that night hurt me more than words could ever say. like my love for you.

i've been running around in the circles for too long. i can never get out.
i can never let go. you're always there.
why is it that you can't leave?
why was it that in my dreams its you

why of all the people in the world did you have to pick me? that night, why did you almost kiss me. did you have to get up in my face, looking so damn hot. did you have to have an amazing body.
those nights watching you dance are burned into my mind. because i wish i could fill your soul like the music did to you. i wish i was the one you were holding close tonight. and i wish you had given me more time.

i think now that you're gone, i want you back. so i'm scared to tell you because if i get you back, i might not want you.

but my heart yearns for your touch, your kiss, your body.

god that body