dancing...

to your love with your heart beat. wondering what the next song will be.
will you watch in wonder
or look away
embarressed of my faulty moves
the music is fast
i move my feet
carefully
so i don't trip
move my body around his
carefully
so i don't hurt him
trying my best to look my
best
for him.

i'm wondering what your thinking
as you sit and listen to our song
look at my face full of love
lust
need

have i told you recently i need you
i need you
you were my everything

dance
let me feel you
caress you
taste you
watch your body move
and watch you
watch me
unable to resist the temptation of you
beautiful eyes
lips daring to be kissed
hands anxious to go where they
want to go
i will love you
him
the rest of my waking moments

you are my reason

ok...i'll write a little. its not that i'm busy...i have nothing to say.
there's too much going on..but i'm not busy...make any sense? my world is coming apart. i'm in love and completely lost. i miss someone more than words could ever describe. it hurts my heart so much to see his smile...just to see him...see him sitting there looking at me...watching me...but i can't watch him. i'm too scared.
i love Him more than he'll ever know. i can't get rid of anything that was Him. He took my heart and i still haven't found it. He hid it well...and i feel like He's still slightly playing with it...which makes it all hurt so much more.

b makes my heart sing...but so does m. how does that work? i still get those butterflies when i see m...still.

i always remember one night in his apartment...i got m the new 50 cent cd....he had been wanting it forever....i remember him putting it in the new cd player he had gotten...turning it up all the way and dancing...dancing his heart out. he is an amazing dancer....and when i danced with him i felt silly but it was so hot....so sexual...so loving...the way he held me...the light he had in his eyes....

everything in my life is falling apart right now. school is terrible, home isn't soo good, b is sick (so am i), i'm dead broke with christmas coming up and tons of stuff that need to be paid for tomorrow, work is a dead end...my favorite manager is getting transfered...

i'm just so fucking lost....


i'm missing you more and more each and every day.

the reason is YOU.

boo